2 posts tagged “work”

I recently heard a message from the Pastor of the church that my son & daughter in law attend. His quote of the day goes something like this...

It's not the worst thing to have tried and failed. The worst thing is not to have tried at all.

As I reflect on the end of the year and where I am in employment and in life in general, I have come to a couple of conclusions.

1. A few years ago I tried to become police dispatcher and succeeded to some degree, but I left after not completing all of my certifications. Why? Because I was just too slow at performing the tasks required to be really good at the job. Did I try my hardest? Oh, yes I did. Did I fail? Yes again. Do I feel bad about that? Sometimes, yet I do believe that God is in control and led me away from that job to another and then finally to where I am.
2. I look at the lives of my sons Derek & Colin and see that, even though they grew up in a house that had their brother Christopher hogging most of the emotional and physical attention of their parents, they both turned out to be good men. I think that their natural inclinations towards being gentle with others who are in distress is a great thing. Both are highly creative and tend to march to the beat of a drummer previously unknown to the masses. Have I failed them in some ways? Sure. Have I tried to give them the tools to be Godly men? Yes. Did I fail in that? No, they will serve our Lord for the rest of their lives because they maybe saw something in me that drives me to want to serve God all of my days. Are they loving, caring guys? You bet.
3. I'm now in a job that probably best suits my capabilities. I have to be a self starter, the deadlines are not harsh, but are timely. I like the people that I work with, in coming back to a company that I worked with for a decade, it sometimes feels like a comfortable pair of shoes to be back here. In quite a different capacity, with more responsibility, yet with the freedom to do things the way that I would like them and the opportunity to treat people the way I would have like to have been treated by one of the "bosses".
4. This last year my relationship with Terry took a surprisingly pleasant turn. There was substantial growth in understanding my needs and her needs. We took a class on relationships and found some very interesting and wonderful things about each other. I have come to appreciate her so much more and I attempt (and fail mostly) to find things that will please her and just do them without any fanfare. The more I can become proficient in the execution of these tasks, the more I will truly be a servant husband as the Lord wishes me to be.
5. My health. In this past month or so, I have had a very serious upturn in my blood pressure, headaches that I thought would never go away, trips to the hospital and doctors & blood sucking labs. I pray that God will use these trials that I am going through with my health to improve me as His man. I pray for my healing; that it would be swift and perhaps I would even find out the cause of some of these problems.

In all things will I give thanks to my Father in heaven, that He would bring me to be the man that He wishes me to be and that I will do the things that pleases Him. I wish to hear His voice and sing His praises with clarity, love & joy.

So here I am, trying to get my head into work and all I can think about is the value that God places on me. I think that is the most incredible thought, to be loved so totally by God who cares for me.

My life does have meaning and it is and should be spent doing his will. I'm so happy that I am loved.

In other news...I suppose that this suspect in the murder of JonBenet Ramsey may be just a whacked out attention-seeker. I'm still reading about it, but this thing may not be solved yet. Sad, really!

OK, I'm done for now, so back to work.